Single life sucks

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold

Single life...again

SC2 streams fill my life now.

All is right in the world.

I can't figure out what's going on
with eyes that see black and white
I tried to do my best
there is nothing I can do for you.

Back then...
something gave me excitement
gave me satisfaction
Do I really know myself?

Don't go anywhere
please don't go anywhere

I would like to return there
why is it so heavy now?
back then I..
like yesterday, couldn't think anymore
don't go back
please don't go anymore

I know I can't walk with my eyes closed
alone... eyes closed
I know I can't always go towards the sky
alone... under the sky

Like always, I hurt you with my words
I politely asked..
what I can reach now...
Don't go anywhere anymore
please don't go anymore
let's not walk any further
please don't go anymore
Don't walk more than me
let's not walk any further
I can't walk any further

How come I always have to initiate conversations with people?

Why is it that the people I believe SHOULD want to speak with me, never take that first step.

Explain this

Thinking of winter
Your name is the splinter inside me
While I wait
And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you

Getting my ass handed to me at work, I make a thousand mistakes, some small, most big. I think it is too early to pass my judgement on the engineering field as of yet.

I just realized, this blog is now about two years old. Half way through my engineering education. I will have to make a post sometime soon to sum up some things I have learned, both about myself and life i.e. not much.

Vacation

Vacation
All I ever wanted
Vacation
Had to get away
Vacation
Meant to be spent alone

Started new job. Everyone is a guy, I wake up at 5:00AM, I work in an office. Nothing I learned in school is ANY GOOD except for maybe terminology, e.g. caisson wall.

As of tomorrow I will begin designing my first piece of engineering work. Enwave provides heating and cooling solutions for the current Women's college hospital and will do so for the new one I am working on. Two pipes, one 10 inches in diameter and one 5 will run into the building. The former will carry condensed steam and cold water, the latter will carry only cold water.

The large pipe will contract and expand due to the fact that cold water and hot steam will run through it at various times. I am required to design the sleeve through which this pipe of variable diameter and shape will pass. The pipe also curves through this sleeve further adding to the confusion. Oh and of course, none of the drawings are to scale. Of course.

A structural engineer will sign off on my work if it's good to go. Fingers crossed.