Monday, November 30, 2009

Fucking fuck.

CDS is hard due this monday, completely forgot. Hard fuck. Fuck.

Have barely done shit, If shit was on the integer scale, I have done negative shit.

If shit was on the ratio scale, I've done 0/shit, which equals nothing.

If shit was on the ordinal scale, well, ordinal scale is just for ranking, the numbers have no real meaning...but still...

All this liberal environmental crap add-ons too, the hell is this? Everyone who knows me knows I don't care about the environment at ALL, only thing I do is turn off lights witht he fury of an OCD crazed old man and use paper like it's the last piece on Earth. Other than that, I don't care.

Tomorrow, CDS work...I'm unbelieveably bad at MS Word too, don't tell anyone.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Top 10 Movies of the Decade.

This is my list, yes 2009 isn't over, so let us hope nothing blows my mindor this list will look quite foolish indeed.

Movies aren't on this list because they won an oscar or made a fuckton o' money. They caused me to think, or challenge my views on something. They caused me to reevaluate what I believed. They made me remember, they made me forget. They changed my life.


Departed / Infernal Affairs: I group these two together and count them as one, considering the Departed is a remake. Regardless as such, this is the cat and mouse tale of the decade without a DOUBT. Who is the cat and who is the mouse? To be honest the question cannot be answered, but what unfolds for the viewer is a tale that leaves you on the edge of your seat. The star studded casts of the two films consisting of: Andy Lau, DiCaprio, Tony Leung, Mark mother fucking Walhberg or Alec Baldwin each deliver a performance worthy of praise and admiration. These films promise to leave you guessing till the very end, and given the version you watch, a surprise ending is what you are in store for.

Andy Lau: "I'm a cop"

Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon: Beautiful imagery, metaphors wrapped in enigmas, Zhang ZiYi (hot), and my man Chow Yun Fat (never had a bed performance to my knowledge). This film struck success both in Asia and here in North American, a feat not easy for Asian cinema especially in our centralist-view based society. Regardless, the film packs powerful action scenes-although many if not all physically impossible-based in illusion and intrigue. Many would say that as a westerner I can never truly understand what the movie represents, both in practice and in idea. This I cannot refute, but to me the movie is beautiful and touching piece which leaves me coming back for more each time. It is my humble opinion that it is the love stories entwined in the film which make it the real gem. In many ways the actors are puppets on the grand stage of a play which they know in their hearts has a sad ending. Nonetheless the band plays on so to speak and to the ending is enough to leave anyone teary eyed (or guessing??? If you recall the end). Man I’m actually getting a little miffed thinking about the ending…fuck…


”I wish that we'll be in the desert together again.”(final line)

Zodiac: Based on real events, one of the many movies of this type on my list as you may notice. The film for me is the ‘King of Suspense’ of the last decade. To me this movie portrays the work of the little man, his trials and tribulations against a seemingly unknown evil. Jake Gyllenhaal delivers a believable and amazing performance of, well, an average man. This man watches the news and hears about a mysterious serial killer. He then decides to take the investigation into his own hands…basically he’s fucking Nancy Drew, except it’s way more epic. Did I mention he’s supported by Robert Downey Junior? What more do you want people? I can safely that there were times during this film that I was so on the edge of my seat, I was worried I was going to fall off. The fucking suspense KILLED me, haha get it? I thought it was kind of clever. In many ways I think I love this movie so much because it is such an endearing tale about someone’s quest to just finish a job. Not to mention the ending left me with a tingling sensation on the back of my neck, I just needed closure, even in that final confrontation I needed it then more than ever…I want to believe that Jake got his, at least I felt like he did from his face…for me, it never came.

Jake: ”I... I need to know who he is. I... I need to stand there, I need to look him in the eye and I need to know that it's him.”


No Country for Old Men: Greed, Conscience, and a man’s word. That is what this movie can be summed up to in three words. If he didn’t take the money, this wouldn’t have happened. If he hadn’t have grown a conscience and good will in the night, this wouldn’t have happened. Had a man’s word not been the be all and end all of agreements which transcends this physical plane…you guessed it, wouldn’t have happened. Javier Bardem was essentially unknown to me prior to this film, but man oh man, was his performance top notch. I believe in some sense Chigurh (Bardem) represents death in its entirety, he is an unfazed and unstoppable killing machine bent on money and above all keeping his word (a justification used all to righteously as an excuse for murder…ironic, kinda). Apart from him is Tommy Lee Jones (the actual main character), Tommy plays a small time Sheriff caught in the past and trying to deal with something so unreal for him and his small town views. To me he represents America and the Western world in general, a set of ideologies and beliefs routed in tradition but now overall flawed in an ever changing world in which we live. His world is shaken by the string of unexplained and gruesome deaths he encounters in his investigation, the likes of which would of never happened in his day. Oddly we learn, as does he, that such things have always happened in human history, and always will. In the end there is only so much one man can do to fight evil, and in the end you can never truly win. I guess the bad guy does win sometimes. And then the film cut to black.


Gone Baby Gone: Casey Affleck, who saw this coming on a top 10 list? If there is one thing to say about this movie it is a question. I want you to watch this film and ask yourself, ‘Did he do the right thing?’ Since I watched that movie the question has never been answered one way or another for me. Some days I think yes, some days I think no. Did he do the right thing? Casey is supported by the heavy hitters Ed Harris and Morgan Freeman. Both of which have their own crosses to bear as they struggle to walk the line between right and wrong and protect arguably the most innocent of us all, children. This movie made me question a lot of things, the duty of police officer for one, when does the badge stop and the human begin, or where does the human stop and the badge begin, some dialogue within the film reveals a past act by Ed Harris in the interest of a child where as a police officer he does something illegal for a great good. I often recall this and I know in my heart of hearts that if it was real and it was me, I would have done the same thing, every time…scary thought…but I admit it freely. I ask you to watch this film and ask yourself the same question I posed before.


’ Ed Harris: Fucking A! You gotta take a side. You molest a child, you beat a child, you're not on my side. If you see me coming, you better run, because I am gonna lay you the fuck down! Easy. Casey: Don't feel easy. Ed Harris: Is the kid better off without his father? Yeah. But okay, I mean, could be out there right now pumping with a gun in his waistband. It's a war, man. Are we winning? No.’


Bourne Identity: This is the action film of the decade. Without a doubt in my mind this is it. If we have learned anything form this movie it’s that you can’t train these guys so well or it’s probably going to come back and bite you in the ass, you know these secret agent kind of things, a lot of ins, a lot of outs. Matt Damon delivers a powerful performance as Jason Bourne, mother-fucker-awesome-to-the-max-extraordinaire. My favourite scene of this film is by far the US embassy, MOTHER FUCKER TOOK OUT LIKE 6 MARINES IN CQC, then he takes a fire map from a wall and a radio off a marine SO HE CAN HEAR THEIR MOVEMENTS BROADCASTED, like Jesus CHRIST, this guy owns a lot of ass. I think if you ask any straight male what guy they could be if given the chance and they would tell you Jason Bourne. I mean, the guy kicks ass. So why is it in the top 10, I mean apart from that if it wasn’t Id be to afraid of Jason’s retaliation…shit, can I call him Jason? Well the fight scenes and stunts, to which there are many, are amazingly choreographed and executed. The chase scene in the mini, fantastic. The story is believable enough that he’s a badass secret agent, now with morals and a heart so willing suspension of disbelief isn’t required to the extremes needed of the 80’s and 90’s action films. To anyone who watches this, complete the trilogy, money and time WELL spent in this writer’s opinion.

Jason Bourne: I can tell you the license plate numbers of all six cars outside. I can tell you that our waitress is left-handed and the guy sitting up at the counter weighs two hundred fifteen pounds and knows how to handle himself. I know the best place to look for a gun is the cab of the gray truck outside, and at this altitude, I can run flat out for a half mile before my hands start shaking. Now why would I know that? How can I know that and not know who I am?

Oldboy: The Korean revenge movie, of the decade, nay I would go as far as saying all time. If there is any movie which can show you just how fucked up Koreans are, it is this. This film is not for the faint of heart, I warn you now. Possibly my favourite movie of all time, yes bold statement, this film shows you the lengths some will go for a dish best served cold (15 years cold), revenge. My first time witnessing a performance by Choi Min Sik left me in awe, to this day I have yet to watch a bad movie where he has taken part in, a fine fine actor to say the least. Director Chan-Wook Park creates an engaging screenplay which sucks the audience in and does not let go. This is a challenging film to say the least, I dare not go into the details and spoil it, but if you view this with an open mind there is no way you can be disappointed. The film is set to a killer soundtrack which one of the pieces to this day remains as my phone ring tone (the Last Waltz). To conclude, as is the way of all Asian cinema, the ending is left ambiguous and up to the viewer to decide, which some may find quite the treat. I leave it to you.

’Woo Jin Lee: Be it a rock or a grain of sand, in water they both sink the same.’


The Pianist: To sum, big Jew, lots of Nazis-awesomely dressed as always-doing Nazi shit, more Jews, there’s a ghetto tossed in there somewhere, and ya…and I think Adrian Brody plays an instrument somewhere in this film? I think it might be the cello, but the jury is still out on this one. If there was one word to describe this film, it would be STRUGGLE, everything for the Jews is a pure struggle, fuckers just can’t get a break it would seem. Nonetheless and pseudo-racism aside this is a touching tale. I don’t have any memories before watching this film of really feeling for a character in a film, I guess when I saw this I was still young and naïve to cinema, so forgive me. You really feel for Adrian, in many ways you are brought into his life and then have it ripped out from around you as the world goes to shit. The themes of the film are obvious to even the most blank of minds, equality, yadda yadda yadda Jews this, Nazi this, it has been done to death but alas I believe there is an unexplored theme which I found interesting upon inspection. You learn by watching this that a nation and its ideals do not represent the people who call it home. Such is the product of democracy where only the majority speak for all. Of all the people to help Adrian in this film, the one who does is the last you’d expect. I guess in the simplest of words, you can’t judge a book by its cover. I believe in many ways aside from the obvious victims (Jews) the unsung victims are the German’s who didn’t believe in the Nazi party and their ideals, the German Officer in this movie is one of such people. In the end I am left feeling more sorry for him than I do for Adrian. The film ends with a beautiful rendition of Chopin's Grand Polonaise brillante in E flat major. ( Ya I had to look that up, what am I an artsci how the fuck would I know otherwise?) In many ways this grand finale in front of this huge crowd makes it seem like nothing really happened, like it was just a bad dream, one day he’s playing, the next he is playing again…I guess the only scars carried are those in his memory.



Jarhead: Jake again?!? What can I say, the man does good work. This is probably the Full Metal Jacket of my generation, I guess ya, anti-war type sentiments and all. The Gulf War, essnetially the precursor to the war of my generation, so why not have a movie about it? Basically I only saw this movie originally because of the trailer, Kanye’s Jesus Walks thrown in made it seem baller as fuck, and I was right. This is not an action movie as many believe it is, me included prior to watching it. This is a character piece and drama about an event which changed the world as we knew it, I was too young…but from what I gather that’s what the Gulf War did. As I watch this film I am most drawn to Jake and Jamie Foxx (another great). Having never been a Marine nor in combat I can never fully appreciate just what these guys go through, but the movie pulls me in, it makes me feel like I am apart of that family, that brotherhood, I am in the corps, it is very powerful in its representation of the life of these men, not much more, if not the same age as me. The film challenges issues like morality, right and wrong, and loyalty in a world turned upside down. But what gets me most about the film is the powerful bonding and imagery created that again as I mentioned, I can never truly understand. To some people the Marines is the home they never had, to others just a stop on a long broken road, Take this powerful monlogue by Jamie Foxx:


’I could be working with my brother right now. He's got a dry-wall business in Compton. Does the inside of office buildings; you know, the metal studs. I could be his partner, said he'd give me that brand new Dodge Ram Charger. You know, the 318 Magnum? The beast? All indoor work, too, lots of AC. I could sleep with my wife every night, fuck her, maybe; take my kids to school every morning. And I'd run his crews, too, probably increase productivity 40 to 50%. Make $100K a year. Do you know why I don't? Because I love this job. I thank God for every fucking day he gives me in the corps,

Combine that ‘from the heart’ speech with the beautiful cinematography that is an oil fire and you have a powerful scene indeed. To me what hit the hardest was just how affected and changed the lives of these men would be forever. A few months in a desert never changed so much for little. Really makes you think. The ending is the crux, life back in America, changed forever by the horrors of the desert. The men of Jake’s platoon flash on the screen showing where they are and what they do, some have meaningless dead end jobs, one is dead, Jamie Foxx is still a Marine this time in Iraqi Freedom, Jake goes to visit the girlfriend who left him. The montage shows you that nothing really lasts forever, not now, not ever, not in the hot desert sand. The fact is, they are back in a country that they would have given so much, everything for, and it doesn’t even care, it doesn’t even know what went on over there and it never will. It will never understand just what some people give/gave for what they take for granted on a daily basis. Nothing has changed. Nothing will ever be the same. I think all of my ideas are captured perfectly in this ending quote by Jake:


’A story. A man fires a rifle for many years. and he goes to war. And afterwards he comes home, and he sees that whatever else he may do with his life - build a house, love a woman, change his son's diaper - he will always remain a jarhead. And all the jarheads killing and dying, they will always be me. We are still in the desert.’


Memories of Murder: Another Korean film, so it is of no surprise if at this point you are scratching your head in confusion. After I watched this film one Saturday morning the only thing I could say was wow. I was literally floored, this is a powerful powerful emotional film. For the record, this film stars Kong-Ho Song, my second favourite Korean actor in many greats, but I digress. The film centres around Korea’s first serial killer and the investigation which would last decades and to no avail, a true story so my spoilers are warranted. The film is a powerful look at the lengths people will go to accomplish a job. In many ways I think the film has a lot of parallels to the aforementioned “Zodiac”, this film is better in my opinion but both center around the same issue.


The film depicts the lives forever changed by these senseless acts of murder and its ensuing investigation. The main characters, who there is no sense naming as Korean names are complicated and just, lol. Anyways, the main characters all begin the film with a set of virtues which make them unique, essentially the big two are Kong, the veteran small town cop, and his new partner, a transfer detective from Seoul with a righteous vigour and mantra to never break the laws he protects. As the story unfolds and ends we are left with two shadows, the characters represent silhouettes of their former shelves, a powerful testament to the effects of these deaths. It goes to show you that even the people trying to stop the bad guys get hurt, not just the victims and their families. In a sense these cops had to bear the guilt of every death as they failed in their quest to stop the murderer. A weight no soul should ever have to lift. Again, the beauty is in not just the story but the characters, The towel a rogue cop wraps around his boot so as not to leave scars when he beats confessions out of suspects, a young female cop desperately trying to showcase her abilities in a male dominated Korea, the new detective from Seoul's insistence that documents never lie (and the irony at the climax that challenges his entire sense of being forever), and the main detective's speech on the difference between FBI agents and Korean cops which leave for chilling revelations.


Again, like Zodiac, the film leaves you on the edge of your seat, it’s a mystery and drama and a little bit of action all rolled into one amazing experience. With each turn the police get closer and closer and with each step, a new body appears and the morale of the police and the nation of Korea sink lower and lower. As the body count rises so does the desperation and this you can FEEL, you can feel it as you watch the film, and it haunts you throughout. The movie leaves you holding your breathes in some scenes as you wish nothing more than to see the killer brought to justice and closure finally come. Again, that closure never comes.

I could write on and on, but I think a youtube clip says all I have to. If a picture says 1000 words, look at his face after what the girl tells him. Imagine if you will a lifetime of police work, searching, beating out confessions, sweat and blood all to hear this…enjoy:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdTF4w03Vbo

When I saw this scene…I eeked like a 12 year old girl watching Twilight, powerful, powerful shit. Just like real life. I actually tear up when I watch that scene, and I know what they went through after watching the film…fuck man…


She has no idea and everything. He has every idea and nothing.


David King.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Best of: 2000-2009

SO instead of studying, I just spent the last few hours comprising this tenative list of what I feel are the greats of the last decade.

Bolded are Korean/Hong Kong/Asian so you may not know of them.

2000: American Psycho, Brother, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Cast Away, Gladiator, Legend of Bagger Vance, Memento, The Perfect Storm, The Patriot, Remember the Titans, Requiem for a Dream, Snatch, Tigerland, Traffic, Joint Security Area

2001: A beautiful mind, Black Hawk Down, Driven,Enemy at the Gates, Fast and the Furious, Kapax, The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring , Last Castle, Legally Blonde, Monster's Ball, No Man's land, Ocean's Eleven, Pearl Harbour, The Princess Diaries, The Score, Spirited Away, Training Day, Vanilla Sky, I am Sam

2002: 25th hour, Bourne Identity, Catch me if you can, Changling lanes, Count of Monte Cristo, Gangs of New York, Infernal Affairs, John Q, The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, The Pianist, Sex is Zero, Signs, We were soldiers, Windtalkers, Transporter, Hero

2003: 21 grams, The Cooler, Gods and Generals, Kill Bill Vol. 1, The Last Samurai, The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, Lost in Translation, A Man Apart, Master and Commander, Mystic River, Monster, Oldboy, Peter Pan, Zhou Yu's Train, Memories of Murder

2004: Alexander, The Aviator, The Bourne Supremacy, Crash, Hidalgo, Hotel Rwanda, In Good Company, Layer Cake, Man on Fire, Million Dollar Baby, Motocycle Diaries, National Treasure, The Notebook, Starsky and Hutch, Taegukgi

2005: Coach Carter, Constantine, The Jacket, Be Cool, Sin City, Crash, Kingdom of Heaven, Cinderlla Man, Batman Begins, War of the worlds, Wedding Crashers, Four Brothers, The Constant Gardener, Lord of War, The Weather Man, Jarhead, Pride and Prejudice, Syriana, Brokeback Mountain, Memoirs of Geisha, Munich, Sympathy for Lady Vengence, Initial D, A Bittersweet Life

2006: Last King of Scotland, Painted Veil, Scanner Darkly, 16 Blocks, Thank you for smoking, Inside Man, Lucky Number Slevin, Superman Returns, My Super Ex-Girlfriend, Snakes on a Plane, Crank, Fearless, The Guardian, Departed, The Prestige, Babel, Casino Royale, Blood Diamond, The Pursuit of Happyness, Letters from Iwo Jima, The Good Shepherd, Children of Men

2007: Zodiac, Transformers, No Reservations, The Bourne Ultimatum, 3:10 to Yuma, The Brave One, Eastern Promises, In the Valley of Elah, Michael Clayton, Elizabeth: The Golden Age, Gone Baby Gone, No Country For Old Men , Atonement , There Will Be Blood

2008: Dark Knight, Rambo, Iron Man, Burn After Reading, Appaloosa , Changeling , Pride and Glory, Gran Torino , The Wrestler, Death Race, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Valkyrie , JCVD

2009: Taken, State of Play, Star Trek, Moon, The Hurt Locker, District 9, Inglourious Basterds

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

On my own, here we go

Uneventful day...

FOR THE EXCEPTION OF THE FACT...I was looking at APS finals on the exam database and lo-and-behold I find a fucking essay question on everyone of them. The fuck is that? That is false advertising, this is engineering not fucking English composition, fucking racism.

So help me God if the policy continues for the 1T3 APS exam, I will write with a fury that burns deep in my soul and that essay will be so God damn unreadable the TA will wish he went to medical school and not this bullshit grad shit he's doing. Fuck you APS.



So I'm hooked, this rando, named Steve apparently has been posting a tale from his life over the last two days. He writes like shit and it takes him forever to type this crap but my God it is entertaining. I find myself drawn into his world, in fuck-knows-where England. Quite the tale, I continue to follow it, more to come no doubt...unless I just never make another blog entry about said topic.



i am so tired. Less than a month. I love [hate] this job.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Surf's up Ace


Uneventiful day...

FOR THE EXCEPTION OF THE FACT THAT I SAW POINT BREAK.

Was it not a few days ago when I recalled with my friend Demetri of the awesomeness that is Keanu Reeves and Patrick Swazye in the the early 90's action piece 'Point Break'. So while im getting deezed and turn on the tv what do I find to my delight? You guessed it.

The movie has everything. Everything. Action, babes, the beach, deezed dudes, surfing, Keanu, Busey, shooting, explosions, and EPIC CHASE WITH AN EPIC ENDING, and the man...Patrick Swazye.

I mean come on, who can forget that epic chase, and the ending of it...shooting in the air out of anger...MAN EPIC...fucking epic.

I think the best part is the end, man...the 50 year storm,
"Look at it! It's a once in a lifetime opportunity, man! Let me go out there and let me get one wave, just one wave before you take me in. I mean, come on man, where I am I gonna go? Cliffs on both sides! I'm not gonna paddle my way to New Zealand! Come on, compadre. Come on! "


Guy couldn't live in a cage I guess, says alot about the human condition. I guess for the Swazye the ride was about more than getting radical.

Anyways, fucking sick movie, FUCKING SICK. I recommend it.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Char's Counter Attack


So at home on a friday night...pretty sad, and instead of studying I thought why not watch an old classic from my DVD collection. One of the greatest from Tomino, another kill-em-all production, Char's Counter Attack brings forth the final saga in a several decade long battle between the loveable but for all intensive purposes evil Char Aznable, and the compassionate protagonist Amuro Ray.

Spoiler's ahead, but you will read on because you crave my ideas.
The movie opens with a spectacular battle in which we learn of Char's plans, a large change considering how we last viewed him as suspected dead in Zeta Gundam. Char’s ambitions aren’t simply to claim independence from the Federation but to ‘liberate’ Earth of all human life. Having grown tired of seeing mankind repeatedly abuse the planet with pollution, he has decided that the future of humanity lies in space; a place where everyone can realize their true potential. Basically at some point he got it in his head that fucking up the planet forever would be a good idea.

The movie is the classic space opera, good and bad. Char represents the repressed emotions, over-zealous ideals, righteous beliefs, but overall evil within us. Char essnetially is the most persistent character of the GUndam universe, unfortunately, he is on the wrong side. There are times when you want Char to win. You want to see his goals fufilled as if they were your's manifested in some space-battling-visual orgy...with robots.
The thing about this film is the volume of characters introduced and many of them new. Even a seasoned veteran of the Gundam universe like myself can have trouble keeping track of various Feddie ensigns or crazy Zeon play-boys. It's like Shakespeare in a way - major and minor characters, each dying alike by the hundreds, few fulfilling their ultimate goals. It's just like war - it doesn't matter who's famous and who's an unknown, for you die all the same. Some find this impersonal, and some find it very realistic. In the midst of all the action, there really is something to be said about this movie - and how space, in the future, can be a graveyard of the lost just like the battlefields here in Earth. It is actually a movie that forces you to think about ideals and beliefs and wonder if they're really worth holding on to when all they seem to lead to is self-destruction, as it seems to do for Char. I think it's kind of ironic in a sense, Char works so hard to free human's from the "pull of Earth's gravity" as he so elegantly says, that is to say, rids humans of the Earth. That he turns space into the same put of despair and misery to which Earth has been for all of human history. Irony.

Skipping the next hour and a half of intense beautifull drawn battle scenes. Many of which are high quality and elaborate to say the least. A testament to high budget and great techniques in animation of 1988. I will proceed to perhaps the crux of the film. The end.

The film culminates in a final one vs one Char and Amuro, the classic fight to which we were gifted with in Mobile Suit Gundam and now are privileged to sloppy seconds, in no way sloppy. On a pure technical basis, Amuro has always been the better pilot and this is quickly apparent as he dispatches Char's attacks with relative ease. But this is not to say that Char is bested, as he is no doubt the second greatest pilot in the Gundam universe next to Amuro. The dynamic duo create a masterful battle of which is a visual orgasm. But this is not why one [nay, why I, many do watch for the Mecha] watches this film.

Throughtout the fight the pilots exchange banter in which the true philosophy and ideals of the characters, and the overlying themes of the series come to light. A human saga one might say. Amuro questions Char's motives and beliefs, he brings to light what is wrong and what is right and in an ever changing world can we ever be sure that our actions will not have consequences, if they do can we live with them, can you live with them?

Char's gripes strike alittle deeper, he blames Amuro (which is true in a sense) for the death of a mutual friend of theirs in the past-Lalah Sune-perhaps a love interest for both Lalah represented the good within both the characters who obviously have shades of grey within. "Lalah could have been my mother" Char states, an unusual statement but for anyone who has ever met someone like this, and this author has, these word's carry alot of weight. Unsuprising then is Char's long distent for our hero Amuro. Char questions Amuro's motives, he wants to know why he protects Earth and the people there who only use him as a weapon of destruction. Char brings to light the irony in Amuro fighting to protect people who use him only to kill. The take away message from Amuro was that the people of Earth need to be their own judge. Simple enough.

To make a long story short. Char is one upped by our 'hero' Amuro and the pair vanish forever after some intense ass overloading of energy within a prototype-frame which connects to a pilots brain. In a explosive light show the greatest protagonist and antagonist of the anime world disappear forever but as with any Eastern production, of course this is not explicit in it's satement so it is up to us the viewer to decide. For me, I like to pretend they both found that peace that a lifetime of battle never awarded them.

Odd how attached one can get to drawings eh? Such is the gift of beautiful story telling. After having watched Gundam for so many years of my life I can safely say this is a powerful and gripping ending to an emotional tale.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I deal in fear


Uneventful day...

Some hard fail at lin again today, hard fail...I have neither the ability nor the patience to learn this subspace crap...it feels like they invented linear algebra to put me down. It is becoming light work.

SO...we started this design stuff in mecahnics, real legit engineering shit, warms an old mans heart I'll tell you that much, reminds me of capacitor design from last year...ahh good times, the kind of stuff where you enjoy doing the problems because they are legit. Too legit to quit. Not the abstract pseudo-intellectual bullshit. See: Linear Algebra and Psychology.

Sorry Psy, low blow I know...but this human factors book I have been reading lately keeps casting you in a bad light.

Oh well, love my way...it's a new rule.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

The world is a vampire


Uneventful day...

and what do I get for my pain? Bad bad weekend man, got like no sleep, was sick on saturday, got no work done, almost crashed on the 401. Fuck man, INTENSE shit. Dying in a car crash would be an affront to my warrior spirit. Yes I had to look up how to spell affront, who knew it had two f's? Not I.

Fail fest aka linear algebra is mad hard, MAD...I don't even get it, not a word...it is probably the second if not first most abstract thing I have studied in my life, and I have done two years of quantum and fucking electronic properties last year...the fuck man...fuck this shit. span U, nullA, imA, linearly indeeBULLSHIT. When the hell am I ever going to use this abstract shit? now THAT is an affront to my engineer spirit.

oh well, Jesus was an only son, what does that tell you.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Well there ain't nothing to this but your daughter...


'...and the life you would not give her break your plans'

Uneventful day...


Typical, midterms finish and they just have to give a few more assignments. I don't even know why I am suprised anymore. Oh and its 10 pm on a thursday and I haven;t finished the mecahnics problem set due tomorrow...oddly I just don't care...resubmission ftw. Who am I kidding, I have to work hard, I'm the last of my Kind/g if you will

So I attended a Nov 11 parade today at the civic centre here in the People's glorious region of East York. Man...I'm not the huge patriotic type, sometimes I couldn't care less about the country, hell I don't even wear a poppy because I don't want to put holes in my clothing. Regardless, nothing like a military parade to make you wanna rejoin...gotta talk to someone about that.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Mina Kim was one of them


Uneventful day...

Just like the sunny days that we ignored because we're both dumb and jaded. I hope to God I figure out whats wrong.


Sunday, November 8, 2009

Jerid Messa: we hardly knew thee

Uneventful day...

So in lieu of studying or complaining about said studying and related school. The following is my character analysis of Jerid Messa.

...and it all began with Jerid calling Kamille a girl

Jerid is the tragic hero in Gundam Zeta, having his mentor (Lieutenant Commander Lila) and girlfriend (Ensign Mouar) killed and being shot down seven times by the same kid with a girly name. Jerid represents the harsh reality there will always be somebody better out there, no matter how good you are.

You know Jerid was kind of a dick, did a lot of bad things, trashed a lot of Titans Mobile Suits and just screwed up a lot of things in general. But I still felt sorry for him in the end.

I mean pretty much everyone around him dies, hates him or looks down on him and even his own death felt so minor and gets brushed away so easily. He just wanted revenge so badly, for his pride and for everyone.

His determination and will is what made him a likable character.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Big Kamma

"Dont hold me back"
"Three equations three unknowns we're in business"
"Now can anybody tell me..."
"I don't know any other way to explain it. I can't make it any simpler"
"Take the moment"

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Time grabs by the wrist directs you where to go...


Uneventful day...

So my nextdoor gave me a pair of 40s and a pair of 55s....FITTY FIVES mother fuckers, it was actually hard work getting them over from his house to mine and up the stairs, God damn. So let's hope one day im deezed enough to curl mo-fucking fitty fives.


Linear algebra is an impending doom which I cannot avoid. I study, but nothing sticks...who knew half the magnitude of cross product of two vectors is the area of a triangle created by those vectors...I DIDN'T

Tomorrow at 9 am the CDS will finally be submitted, with it goes my anxiety and uncertainty of many issues and any obligation I have to complete work within a strict timetable. Tomorrow will also mark the moment I no longer have to go to a partcular library and see a particul person who breaks hearts. Good ridance.

oh damn...thats a good song too...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


Uneventful day...

Mechanics, not to shabby...could go either way though as I am the master of mixing up my numbers and putting two's where three's should be, some might say its the King curse. You know all the King's had were are charms and good looks when we came to this country.

So I saw her again monday, I tell you I can't wait for this CDS project to be over, I can't take going to Gerstein anymore, all I do is see her everytime I am there and it just leaves this horrible taste in my mouth. Her hair looks great, not quite as short as it was, but a nice intermediate which forces a second look...oh well, even if it ends justify means nothing is ever what it seems. I still don't have much to stand on, and no one is giving it out.

Another 19/24 day. not bad for day 3 of the set. If only the same could be said for Algebra.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Three equations, three unknowns, we're in buisness

Uneventful day...

Going in guns blazing to this Mechanics midterm, whatever happens, happens...