Friday, April 15, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Fucking women man...women. Cannot stand them.
Days go by.
Wisdom teeth out on Thursday, I don't think they will put me to sleep, kinda wish they would, maybe wouldn't have to wake up.
Trying to join the Reserves, getting red tapped by the government, I really need that structure in my life. I need something. A library and a gym can't contain me.
Exams.
Seeing people you used to know in high school and noticing how they are attractive now. Hate that.
Days go by.
Wisdom teeth out on Thursday, I don't think they will put me to sleep, kinda wish they would, maybe wouldn't have to wake up.
Trying to join the Reserves, getting red tapped by the government, I really need that structure in my life. I need something. A library and a gym can't contain me.
Exams.
Seeing people you used to know in high school and noticing how they are attractive now. Hate that.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
By the rivers of Babylon,
Where he sat down,
And there he wept
When he remembered Zion.
Oh, the wicked carried us away in captivity,
Required from us a song,
How can we sing King Alpha's song
Inna strange land?
So, let the words of our mouth
And the meditations of our heart
Be acceptable in Thy sight.
Oh, verai!
Where he sat down,
And there he wept
When he remembered Zion.
Oh, the wicked carried us away in captivity,
Required from us a song,
How can we sing King Alpha's song
Inna strange land?
So, let the words of our mouth
And the meditations of our heart
Be acceptable in Thy sight.
Oh, verai!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Lay me down in concrete fields
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mSmOcmk7uQ
Well I am alive after the 3 exam fuck fest, marks aside.
Borrowed time, it feels like that a lot more often than not these days. What am I going to do in April? She gets on that plane home and I am left here to pick up the pieces of what is left. What an idiot David was, fell for someone where there was no real future.
I get teary just thinking about that day. I don't think I will ever hate Pearson airport more than that day. Hold my breathe.
Almost done my fourth year, I'm tired. Two more years of this. Sure, I have no one to blame but myself and ya, I don't envy the stress that comes with the real world. But man, do I hate this place or what?
Lastly, rank 5 of my class. Consider the spread between me and rank 1, which is about 1%, less if memory serves. I will make a bold statement here:
"Had I not become ill, I would have been rank 1."
The countless doctor visits, the hospital trips, the stress, the days when nausea left me crippled or unable to eat.
But I have nothing to be ashamed of, in my heart, the heart of a Lion I will always know I gave it my all, and will always be able to hold my head up high.
Would rank 1 have made me happy?
Not a chance.
Well I am alive after the 3 exam fuck fest, marks aside.
Borrowed time, it feels like that a lot more often than not these days. What am I going to do in April? She gets on that plane home and I am left here to pick up the pieces of what is left. What an idiot David was, fell for someone where there was no real future.
I get teary just thinking about that day. I don't think I will ever hate Pearson airport more than that day. Hold my breathe.
Almost done my fourth year, I'm tired. Two more years of this. Sure, I have no one to blame but myself and ya, I don't envy the stress that comes with the real world. But man, do I hate this place or what?
Lastly, rank 5 of my class. Consider the spread between me and rank 1, which is about 1%, less if memory serves. I will make a bold statement here:
"Had I not become ill, I would have been rank 1."
The countless doctor visits, the hospital trips, the stress, the days when nausea left me crippled or unable to eat.
But I have nothing to be ashamed of, in my heart, the heart of a Lion I will always know I gave it my all, and will always be able to hold my head up high.
Would rank 1 have made me happy?
Not a chance.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Lightning Crashes
Three exams the next few days, one Tuesday and two Wednesday, should be a real Clark.
I have started watching Scrubs from season 1 episode 1. Oh my God, the show is HILARIOUS, shame on me for not watching this earlier. It is a nice reprieve from what is otherwise an endless grind. This semester worse than any other I have experienced. Everything is an uphill battle, it's just...I dunno, I really pushed it hard first semester, pushed it real hard. Then I got sick...and that didn't help anything, still am sick for the record. Sick my whole "break" so it really didn't turn out to be much of a break, and then back into the shit. Head first.
The other day it all really came to a head. I just broke down and started crying in front of my friend. A grown man crying in front of another. That's just what happens when you burn the candle at both ends.
As for this week...keep pressing, keep your head up, and keep on keeping on. I am reminded of the great works of heroes such as Goku. I guess I need my own Kaioken attack.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Give blood. Play hockey.
I live in a world in which structures analyze themselves.The grey rain-curtain rolls back, and all change to silver glass. Then you see it. White shores... and beyond. The far green country under a swift sunrise.
Then I woke up.
Then I woke up.
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